Cwmderi Diary 2017: 3 August 2017 (1st)

"That auction was a waste of time"

Garry arrives back at the Deri, and tells Dani that he has missed them both; the auction was a waste of time, and he thinks that Dani looks tired. “You didn’t overdo it while I was away, did you?” he asks,

"Sioned came over for a chat yesterday"

and she replies that Sioned came over yesterday for a chat, about babies, nappies, everything really.

"I know you're not keen on her . . ."

Dani goes on, “I know you’re not keen on her, but it’s nice for me to have someone who is going through it too – a chance to compare notes,” and at that moment, Sioned approaches and thanks Dani for yesterday.

Sioned enjoyed their chat yesterday

She promises some treats when Dani comes over to her flat.

After Sioned has walked away,

"How can you stand her company?"

Garry wonders how Dani can stand her company,

"You need to get to know her better"

but Dani insists that he needs to get to know her better. Garry goes inside for a cup of coffee, and Dani wears a look of suspicion.

Linda looks for the tablets

At Bryntirion, Linda is going through DJ’s pockets in the washbasket, in search of those tablets; when DJ sees her, he tells her she is wasting her time.

"I wouldn't hide them in my pocket!"

“Do do you think I’d hide them in my pocket?” he demands, and tells her that it is for her own good.

"I'll find a way to get more!"

“How can it be good, living like this?” she answers, “Keep the tablets if you want – I will find a way to get more!” DJ insists that he only wants to help her; “You know how to help me!” she snaps.

"Has the freezer door been left open?"

Dai comes in, and detects an icy atmosphere; “Has the freezer door been left open?” he enquires. Linda moans that DJ wants her to get more rest, but she maintains she is the one knows what is best for her.

When Dai suggests that she go for a lie down,

"People die in their beds!"

she replies, “Why? People die in their beds.”

"I've got to go and open up"

Garry decides that it is time to go and open up the pub,

"I haven't finished, Garry"

but Dani, rather abruptly, says, “Wait, I haven’t finished with you yet. While you were away, I offered to be Sioned’s birthing partner.”

"What did you want to do that for?"

He is incredulous at this; she adds, “It isn’t right, her giving birth on her own – someone should be with her. The father can’t, can he? And she doesn’t want Eileen there.”

"You should focus on our baby!"

Garry remarks that she should just focus on their baby; “I don’t want you with Sioned – she’s taking advantage of you!”

"The father of Sioned's baby . . ."

Dani continues, “Oh yes – there is one other thing – Eileen came over to see me too, just for a chat – about the weather, the shop, the father of Sioned’s baby.

". . . not Ed . . . YOU!"

“No, not Ed – YOU! It was a shock to me, too!”

Of course, Garry tries to laugh it off

Garry laughs, and calls it impressive, even for Eileen. “It’s a lie – she’s off her head, just like Sioned! Come on, Dan, don’t tell me you believe it –

"We don't cheat on each other" — Yeah, right!

“you and me, we’re solid! We’re not like other couples, we don’t cheat on each other.

"It's nonsense, Dani!"

Please put it out of your mind – it’s nonsense!”

"She's probably tired of arguing with you"

Linda is asleep at last, and Dai brings DJ a cup of tea; “She’s probably tired of arguing with you,” Dai says, “Do you have to be so hard on her?

"Life's too short for arguing"

“I know things are difficult, but life’s too short for arguing. Why don’t you go out for a spin, just the two of you? Make the most of her company while you’ve still got her.”

DJ fears the future

DJ admits that he is too scared, and fears that when he comes down the stairs any morning, she could have gone, but Dai assures him that he will know when the end is near.

But now Linda is awake

Linda opens her eyes to hear DJ saying, “Every time I say ta-ra to Mam, it could be the last time,” but Dai urges him to be strong for her. “I’m not ready to lose her, Dad,” DJ tells him.

"All the packing finished, then?"

In the café, Hywel and Sheryl are having breakfast before they leave for Canada.

"We just have to pick up Esther"

“All we have to do now is to pick up Esther from Anita’s house, and off we go,” says Sheryl. Sara tells them she will want to hear all about it.

"Right – packing, Hywel!"

Sheryl orders Hywel to go home and finish doing his packing.

"You've got to eat"

DJ does not want to eat anything, but his mother encourages him to; “Everyone knows what is best for me today,” DJ complains.

"I didn't expect it to be like this"

She is not sure about going out in the car, and did not expect it to be like this;

"I don't want this cancer controlling me any more"

“I thought I would fight it to the bitter end. I don’t want this cancer controlling me any more – it hasn’t been an easy decision, but do you know what has been the hardest part? Watching you suffer. I know I want to die, but I haven’t stopped to consider your feelings, and the pressure I’m putting on you. I’d do anything to change how it is – but I can’t. I’m sorry for putting you through this.”

She goes into the lounge

She gets up and hobbles through to the lounge; after some thought,

DJ delves into the bin . . .

DJ goes to the bin, which fortunately has not been emptied during the last ten days,

. . . and the tablets are still there

and retrieves the bottle of tablets.

"It's not the same without the landlady"

Garry walks into the flat and asks, “Aren’t you coming down? It’s not the same without the landlady – there’s no point in staying here.”

"There's no smoke without fire"

Dani hopes that the old saying is not true – ‘no smoke without fire’. “How many times?” he exclaims, “It’s a lie, so, please, can we forget about it? I don’t know why she said it – I’ve tried thinking of a reason.”

"There are 25,000 reasons, actually!"

“That’s the point – there are reasons,” Dani tells him, “There are 25,000 reasons, actually – yes, I forgot to mention that. According to Eileen, you’ve given Sioned £25,000 to shut her up.

Garry needs a convincing explanation pretty sharpish

“Don’t deny it, because it’s a small matter to find out if that’s true. Garry, what’s going on?”

He is forced to confess that there is something going on between him and Sioned, but not what Dani thinks.

"Sioned's blackmailing me"

“She’s blackmailing me – she wanted more for Deri Deithio but I said no. If I didn’t give her £25,000, she threatened to say that I was the baby’s father.”

"Garry Monk, who never lets anyone get the better of him . . ."

Confused, Dani begins, “Let’s get this straight – Garry Monk, who never lets anyone get the better of him, says, ‘OK, here’s £25,000, help yourself’!” Why does Eileen think you’re the father?”

"She's as bad as her daughter!"

He replies that Sioned must have told her, and that they are a toxic pair, but they will not get the better of him.

"I don't know what to think, Garry!"

Dani does not know what to believe, and refuses to let him touch her, so he goes back down to the bar, while Dani tries to make sense of the situation.

"Hywel, my passport's not here!"

Sheryl is checking that she has all the necessary documents, but finds that her passport is missing, although Esther’s is there. “I don't believe this – it was in my bag!”

Panic ensues

Both she and Hywel search frantically.

"What do you think you're doing?"

Garry arrives in Sioned’s flat, asking her what she thinks she is doing; “Sending your Mam to tell Dani the truth! I could lose everything! What were you hoping?

"Hoping I'd run into your arms?"

“That Dani and I would finish, and I’d run into your arms? You have done enough – stay away from us!

Not the outcome that Sioned had been anticipating

“You’re nothing compared with Dani.”

"Maybe I'll meet Mr Right!"

At Bryntirion, Linda has changed her mind, and now wants to go out in the car; “Maybe I’ll meet Mr Right,” she jokes.

"We're not going anywhere"

DJ tells her, “We’re not going anywhere – it doesn’t matter what I want. It’s your life, and it’s up to you. I can’t force you to carry on like this – you know what’s right for you. I love you, Mam.”

He returns her tablets

He hands back the tablets to her.

Hywel is furious; “Why didn’t you keep your passport in your pocket?”

John Post is getting impatient

Outside, John Post, in the taxi, sounds his horn. In the doorway, Hywel insists that they cannot go to Canada without her passport, so she says that he and Esther will have to go, and she will follow as soon as she has obtained a replacement passport.

"It's you that Wil wants to see"

“It’s you that Wil wants to see,” he stresses, and then they see Jason,

"Are you looking for this?"

across the other side of the road, brandishing a passport, which he found in the café. Excitedly,

Sheryl is ecstatically happy . . .

Sheryl dashes across the road in the rain to collect it.

. . . and they leave for Canada

Sheryl has to hurry back to the taxi, and off they go to the airport.

"Don't go without saying goodbye"

DJ sits on the bed with his mother; “Promise me one thing,” he says, “Don’t go without saying goodbye – I couldn’t cope with that.”

"It's going to be all right"

She urges him not to be afraid, as it is going to be all right.

“I’ll be up there, looking down on you,” she says, and he presumes that she will be sitting on a cloud, playing a harp. “I intend having a laugh up there. I’m not going yet, you know,”

"How will you decide when?"

but he replies that it will be soon, and asks how she will decide when it is time. She tells him that she will know when the time comes, and thinks he will too.

"I'd like you to be there at the end"

“This is what I’ve wanted from the start,” she goes on, “I’d like you to be there at the end – I want you to help me die.”

Sioned blames the mental state of her mother

Sioned arrives at the Deri flat, and tells Dani that what her mother said is not true. “Her behaviour has been weird for a few weeks – I don’t know what is wrong with her. Mood swings, making odd remarks – I’m worried about her.”

"I'm surprised you didn't mention that before"

Dani replies that she should have spoken about this, as they are such good friends.

Sioned continues that her mother will not see the doctor, and she is sorry that she has put Dani through all this, as they are friends.

"No – we used to be friends!"

Dani takes issue with this; “No – we used to be friends!”

"I would never sleep with Garry!"

Sioned protests that she would never sleep with Garry, just as Garry comes in, but is ordered out of the flat.

"You're not welcome here – off you go!"

He also wants to get rid of her; “You’re not welcome here – off you go!” But Dani has not finished yet,

"At least get your stories straight!"

and reminds them, “If you’re going to tell lies, you should get your stories straight. Is it blackmail? Or has Eileen lost the plot? Come on – getting the story straight is basic!”